from Asiya
As You reed more down You going to more and more to past ...
1000 Thanks to person, who maid last-kind decision :) !!!
to be sad - means think all the time only about our "myself " :) ... 
very often people doing reckless stupidity and nastiness - I hate idiots. People are unique and different, but the burgers that you can make from them turn out to the same.. - byaaa
a STIVEN SPILBERG's FILM "The color purpl" we seen yesterday together - it was tears on Jens'es eyes... and in my also... A movie i will never forget!
few days after Dolly's appiarance
we found her in street
she was 2 month old
looks like a sad donkey
and sooo nice
clever...
Jens was with her in vetirinar klinike, and did for her passport, medikal kontol.., and many-many other kind things
when i am going to my turkish kours,..... :D they are going to park together....
it is our Dolly now- aprroxmently 6 month old girl
rain with thunderstorms - amazing! .. and the fresh clean smell of the forest from mountains ..
pinnsvinet lært å puste
gjennom egen rumpe - satt på en stubbe og
døde av mangel på luft
...In mythology, she was very fond of comedy, played out between Vulcan, Mars and Venus. She had stood up for the Vulcan, but after learning that he was lame and awkward, and at the same time the blacksmith, she at once moved to the side of Mars... from Ivan Aleksandrobich Goncharov's "Ordinary story"
It was so big dream to learn norwegian language, because in this case i will understand my husband more, and i can explain myself more to him... Now we are tolking inglish mostly, but it is not original language of both of us... and it is no chanse to learn Norwegian language, because we are in Turkie- i learnTurkish... i don't want, but it is comming to head
Udi= Une= fryktelig drage .... i am afraid
everyone is afraid of ...
May be someone is brave in a crowd? tell, is it normal, what they are doing with us?
i want to say, that Udi and Une desided not only our familie's destiny, but this organithation cannot understands, that there own hands will be in blood, if something will happen with Jens: he use medicine, wich he got from norvegian doktors more than one year ago... without any new control...Some medicine we not found here... Jens use marevan, medicine, wich retyorn him to "person from glass"... every little trauma becoming to gematoma, and it is verry difficalt to stop his blood.... Some times his eyes can be in blood.... Udi and Une are joking wth live of people... Who let them be our Gods ...or they are.... 18.09.2011
i learn turkish language... not norvegian
19.08.2011: we have a car for 3 days.. Reno... driver - Jens...
Jens, jeg elsker deg!!!
waik up, folk! Your Voice - is power! We need in Your help...............
behind bars
Everywhere are tolkings that ONE PLACE now is full of LOVE...
interesting, where was LOVE befor... and interesting, if it will stay forever or it is damped out in the cold human?
OsLoVe....
We was today in police in Turkye - now i am more shure: we will get rezidence permite here for more 6 month (Alla bersa)... Thanks to Turkye, that we have chanse live together....
Jens and I.... we are family!!!
my huband is most beautifule man in all universe!!!
two years together - ura-ura-ura!
Udi-Une, where are you???... it silence long-long time...
We was in tour to mountins - few hours... It was very quiet and fresh, and smelled of the countryside: manure, hay, near nature... +Jens-sulsike!!!!
It is very kind people here- i feel so... It is very friendly contry to everyone... It is not so expensive country, and many people in age from skandinavia lives here many monthes... It is very strange, but it is looking like Norway for example no need in people, which this country for example (again) could no longer use: no chance for these people to be useful and happy, and they run out of cold iron, brutal country to there ... where it is warm, friendly and vital...
I am sorry, Norway, but i understand many things about YOU: beautifule nature, but fals-kind people, smile of wich as soon person turn away, becomes to indifference...
And we are throwed away... but here is not so bad... i have chanse to do something: now it is taekwondo and karate... May be you not trow away us, may be You are lost us - og vi er talenter....................
Lacrymatory (from the Lat. lacrima, a tear) is a class of small vessels of terra-cotta or, more frequently, of glass, found in Roman and late Greek tombs, and supposed to have been bottles into which mourners dropped their tears. They contained unguents, and to the use of unguents at funeral ceremonies the finding of so many of these vessels in tombs is due. They are shaped like a spindle, or a flask with a long small neck and a body in the form of a bulb.
The name of these small tear bottles is derived from the lacrymatory glands that secrete tears. Also commonly spelled Lachrymatory.[1]
The Unguents referred to in the Encyclopædia Britannica reference were likely fragrant ointments or pastes similar to solid perfume or perfumed cream today. There is evidence that people have collected their tears in mourning and as a symbol of deep love throughout history, but not as the common practice once attributed to the Romans. (from Wikipedia)
My tear vessel is very voluminos - the cause is UDI and UNE...
Udi, Une and others let's learn KARATE! And we will respect others, and we will refrain from violent behavior, and we will do everything with courtesy,
and we will find "MIO" !
Jens is stronger - he is brave... we have many nice moments together
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jeg elsker deg, Jens
Merhaba :) - hello - zdravstvuite! today come little shtorm, it is blooooowing, it is very dark sky, and kanskje de-kanskje de will rain... We was in Kleopatra Brahmaputrovna beach... It is so clean sand there... i am plaing and plaing and plaing... It was a lot of fishing people... i am not a fishermann today, i am more KakerEatingMann today... Jens is leing under the blankket and under musik-k-k-k - relaxing time.. We made nice not long street racing on bikes... i won today, but ele-ele: Jens is very strong now ...06.03.2011
We have a cat Mus'ka - she is wild, but every morning is seating and waiting for meals under veranda... When Jens see her, he is tolking with her in norwegian: hallo-hallo-hallo..., commer nå..., ya-ya... When i should go and give to her something - i am tolking in english and ruussian... but i am not so tender - i am like a... more realist........... jens is dreamer, optiiiimiiist, joker, smyly... he is nice... i am rain... but if about Musya again - i think, she is very clever, not because of languages, wich she can understand, but because she is thinking.
i try to learn in karate bassai dai, it mean "to penetraite the fortress". Two days ago we penetraited fortress here - kastle in Alanya i mean... it is very heavy road up to kaste and down walking may be even more hard... possible to take bus, but we did it without -TO PENETRAIT and nothing less!!!! we did it like a two heroes of magik and sword - whu-whu-whu... we did it in our usuall human leggs! i am - Asiya Jacobsen- was very hot and tyred, but veryy happy and proad for Jens...
03.03.2011
Jens! because You was in armiya 18 month, because You are my man, because i feel
myself good with You and protekted like in fortress, and because i love You, i congratulate You with 23 of february - hura-a-a-a!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jens, jeg elsker deg
today 22.02.2011: just finished to po...-la-la-la med Jens! today i made pyshki, taste of wich i like very mach... i think, Jens also - because he finished all - and it was only green empty plate on table... Yesterday i found some kind of palme on the beach - very-very little plant - i took it, because it will no sevive there... it will grow in flat ...and then we shell see... From morning Jens is tolking with me in Norwegian languege... First it was strange, but i like to listen it. Ha-ha-ha, i am steel not understand a lot and i cannot speak complite. I have not something constante to do here except home work, Jens and karate.... So i try to put my everyday live in to this tre point... - and it is eproxmently enought for happy life... i steel lern who is my husband - i like him and i love him.... Jens Christian likes KARATE! and i like! It is some rulls in carate, wich can be good to use for all people: SEEK PERFECTION OF CHARACTER, BE FAITHFUL, ENDEVOR TO EXCEL, RESPECT OTHERS, REFRAIN FROM VIOLENT BEHAVIOR!
Today i will get answer - if i have yellow belt or no....
i am Asiya, i am in life... i am in love.. in love with Jens and in life with Jens...
I am going to Karatedo tre times in week... it is interesting, and if untill 5 of february i will here- in Alaniya- i will get yellow belt - i hope-i hope- i hope-i want
Jens-Jens-Christian, and you will more and more yonger, and i will more and more older... and than, when i will old starushka, you will little child... i will L. Y. All My Life
Jens has sayd to me: they think that our case is not enought serios, that is why at case was look only one advokat and befor it was prepeared for advokat by some secretariat... We not got nothing new about our case, just only yet about i and my husband came from different ethnos... We not got so much shok, when we got decision-"avshlag".... i am in love, and my love is close to me and it is better to live like this even if it will happen millione of AVSHLAGS... I don't like Norway more... - only nature
NOW nemndleder in UNE: Monica Thon Nygaard called our marryege like a proforma!
kill joy
I am SRIKKE..? strikke-strikke-strikke...few things at once - that is why it is no final result more... Jens has pain in stomak... second day already - how can i help him? Jens will look at Tour De Sky today - for this time it will very difficult for me to get his attantion - but i wil seat close to him and to OUEN and strikke like a strikkeza..... Dinozauruses is around us - it is Chiken-ki and all birds - hurra! We are got desicion from UNE - it is again NO... last, i think... 05.01.2011
Hello... it is 21:59 03.01.2011... it is me Asiya Jacobsen, doughter of Rustam Yusupov and Tat'yana Yusupova... My brother Timurka is in Russian millitary - second week allready... my brother Dima - working in factory - he is very clever - very-very.......... My favorite dog - Dolly is in Chelyabinsk - i not seen her all eternity... I am criature... Dinozavres was very big and strong and not so clever creatures, but i am other - sad-sad-sad.... Jens-Jens-Jens...Jens use "million kinds" of medicine every day... And we found approxmently all here in turkish apoteks, but we not found one - BURINEX - they sayd it is no n Turkie this medicine... ????????????????? i am not feel myself good now: what if? what if? what if?... someone, can comeone help to us - send this BURINEX (vandrivende)...PLEASE......................
I painted my bysikle - noone haas not like this in all universe - but i am not proud - i know i should throw it away, when visa will in finish...
It is life - hayat bu iS'te......
tesekkur ederim for attantion
ha-ha, ha-ha, i shell speak laiter
new area of bysikling started... no house, but bysikles is... no, i am not sad, i feel something pleasent after todays tour with Jens... i am not sad - i am a little happy after sjomannskirke... there so kind there and need each other
dette er Jens paked like a baby
Yesterday was birthday of Jens Christian Jacobsen... i was with him... We was eating chinees food and not chinees cakes... pole also... I made for him one sokc with smile and eyes, and he bought for me bysikle... He sayd that his father also bought for him bysikle on his own birthaday... I think, he is good meneske... i mean Jens is good, and not only because of bysikle... he is better than many of you...... I am sorry - it is i feel so.................
"Get in the car..." - sayd Ricard Gir... we look film...we look film... and we can do many oyhe things - but we are in Tyrkye - casted away????????????????????????????????????
When we look at "planet earth" and to other "planets" - it is clever informtion - it is kind information - it is developmet; when we go to karate - it is also not bad, but day is so long sometimes............ sometimes.... sometimes.... and it is again can gome dispair... ONLY IF TO LIVE FOR EACH OTHER? a, Jens? If it something happened - i should say: jeg elsker deg!
Hello from now's Asiya to futurers Asiya and Jens... In saterday -last saturday of November 2010 teacher in karate not give permit to Jens to look at traning - :((( dark -dark-darknessss... i was not in morally power to do something... i cannot do something so nice, when Jens is not with me... i understand... First reaktion was sadness, than crying, than i leave tatami....
I was thinking and thinking if today Teacher again will say to Jens that he should wait for me outsaid - i will not trainig karate more... because i see he is my morraly help and Jens interested in karate now- he tryed to repiat something at home - maya geri, mavashi geri, kiya-kiya-kiya.... So i was walking to karate today like to kort.... but she gave permite to us to be together - she is kind - hurra-hurra-hurra!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not kill us please...:
Listen me, people, please - people wich is afraid to show faces....: my Jens Christian is sick - i don't know allergy or other something - he has strong kaffing every five minits - He sayd it is kittlinng - by i think, it is not so simple to stay with this - even if it is only kittling... Help, please, kind someone... i try to give him tea with annise and fenhel and lemon... but i am ikke medik - may be should do something else... You noone cannot understand it untill you will have the same.... And he don't want to go to Norway - to doctors - because of this stupied case.. of reunification us... He use too mach medicamentes, but not chek his blood many monthes - may be allergy from some medicine...
What to do??? What to do??? Please......................................... 22.11.2010
A-a-a-a-a-a! a-a-a-a-a! if i want i can say BIRMA and not BURMA!!! Noone cannot close my mouthe - only cut tong, but not cut thoughts!!! UDI-shki and UNE-shki, it is not bra - case the same long like a eternity- i cannot realize myself- it is heavy, because i am also from society... More human will to kill me.. i have not NOTHING to do - sometimes possible to live, and sometimes- DIFFICULT. I am SORRY, everybody.............................
Moorsoldaten... It was name for people in koncentrations camps of Gitler and Gimler, who was working in moors - to take away water... I don't want to write nothing... All in life is stuf and noncense - nadoelo!!! In cold stairs all time seating invalide-man... smolking, because people cannot give to him something more good than sigarets... i hate myself... i got fish, Jens said that it is main, also was picca - only with cheez, dyrki-bulki-vilki... Nadoelo!!! i hate myself, i hate... It was very pain to be in prison Trandum - i see it very often - how i was fixed - in yellow cold room with little window...it was for me concentration laer.. after it was only one percent of me............... fixed was all body until i was not in power to move and think ... i was like a danger animal inside a box - task was demoralisated me, but not kill complitely... at the same time they was tolking so fals kind and smiles was around my face: so it was unpossible to understand where is border between kindness and slem... fals and true... And this fals smiler in Your faces - for what??? if at the same time you made you terrible decision, wich kill all person inside....... i am killed...
-vous me comprenez?
-Je comprends tout ce que vous dites, je ne comprends pas seulement, pourquoi vous dites cela...
"Boat tour-boat far-one hour!!!..." They "got" me... or may be it is fish not come to my hook... it is happened:BOAT TOUR... tr-tr-tr-tr-tr + cave ov pirates + tr-tr-tr + sea +sun + 200 meters up roks + cave of lovers + two divers + tr-tr-tr + phosphorik cave + Jens, wich jump in to the water like a hi-hi-hi + tr-tr-tr-tr-tr... it was may be romantisk? ma be too sentimental? But it happened - and i want to say: "Hurra!!!"
Washing mashina is not washing more - people!!! it is not good to live not in own house and use not own things.... People!!!
in 27 of octobre i was in sjømannskirke, then fishing (- one poor fish).., than swimming (- water warm and wind cold), then shop, then turkish restoran, now we seat at home - where is porpose of my life?.... porpose only that i was in every this places with Jens, and now we seat together... Tomorrow karate - i should find power, because now i have pain in all body from yestardays training... One things wich was tought me very much - is marathon and triatlon - How people can be brave and strong!!!! And may be i can................. Jens?
People-people! i was in my first lesson of KARATE yesterday.. Nuuu, today i have a little power to move my lags and hands.. and kh-h-nack... and back, i am in life... First thing wich made me confused, that around me was very clever children-children-children-boys and girls, second - that i don't know language, also i am not so fast like a children, also i was afraid that they will lougthing: how i am stupied... , also i long time was not so much in cosiety.... but children was kind, teacher was interesting and Jens Christian was in five meter from me. Now - only for him and may be for myself i should try to be true Asiya Jacobsen...
Today will fest på kjerka - in sjømannskirken... And may be i will go innnnn again - why i am nervouse(?): only because i cannot SPEAK and UNDERSTAND. Only Jens can hjelp and people. And i allready feel: when i go to kirke - people is very kind and not against me, and some people know even that i speak russian and lit engelsk... why they are kind? i am nothing.........
I got from sea 6 fishes today, i gave to them freedom - nothing to be proud.
Jens Christian, i am sorry, i am dura, i know, but Jeg elsker deg, thank you for karate, thank you for cicibebe, thank you for swiming, thank you for this strange salat, thank you that you look after me - withot you i will afraid to stay here - really you are my castle... And you are very strong now - "GROW"!
from head wich i have now - 00:03 13.10.2010...: i am fishing fish wich i cannot get from water, i feed dog, wich should save from me territory, i very simple gave everything wich i need to little boys, which need it also, i cut hear around leaps of my husband, because it is kittling to kiss him with...hm-hm-hm... and at the same time someone "foxy" and store decide my destiny - be or not to be....
Not be
- i am tyred
- elsker du meg, Jens?
i will go and will sleep now, Jens is sleeping already.. he periodically again will tern to me and kiss, i will say to him: "thank You..-thank You..-thank You" because who i am without him, who can give to me so much attantion if not Jens Christian Jacobsen... Jens, i joke may be, but i am seryosly now.... - i am comming :)
Eh, people, i can see, that You look at web-site... and it is not help... i don't know what we should do with Jens more - i knw now we have strange life... i am young and cannot get job and lern languagae, in wich speak my husband - i need to do something... Vase that i swim under the water every day not pain me so good - i am not in paradise yet... We not go insulatard yet - and Jens his last for this evening - we only can hope.... But in any case life is good, when Jens with me.. Jens, when You with me - i smiler hver dag fordy jg er glad ;)
22.09.2010 - We are in Tyrkie more then one week.. Jens now should find medicine for his heart and unti his diabet - here Eszane apotek - hot'by-hot' by... Insuline no yet we not found i mean... we need...it
In real life Jens is very brave, because i have not money and he found money for tikets, for renting flat, for meals and things for life - all from his pension... but two days ago i got problem - my tooth is broken... i am afraid.
Thank you to people, who can understand us, who think that we are not proforma, thanks to people for a little attantion even... here is not so nice internet and it is no chanse to put fotos and write more... We are in difficult situation - we try to paint life here, but it seems: we are guests in this life... For what You need to torture persone, wich is not so yong powerfule... Noone from You cannot see how and he feel all of Your avshlager and ignorers, me too- me too, but who i am for You..??? zero... I hope Jens after all troubles should get something better than "NO-NO-NO"...
it is nothing to do here - nothing to do- nothing to do... an ordinary miracle - i cannot see porpose here... nothing to do.nothing to do... Udi, kill me untill end, please... because when is goes little by little - it is more heavy... Nothing to do in Tyrkie-nothing to do.. i know i am not animal yet - i need to realize myself - i paint, but it is nothing to do, i wash, but it is nothing to do, i swim, but it is nothing to do... Jens has taken car for week... it is nothing to do in Tyrkie. I am not turist - i don't want
i am in Tyrkie - absurd - absurd...- absurd.. My life is Turism now?... i don't want to be torist of life, i want to live...
i am very depressed - soon will come time when Jens should leave Russland. What we will decide? i don't know and afraid... Jens, i don't want to stay without You - without You it is only 10 percent of life - i will only get air, that is why my body will in life, but mind, but soul, but everything wich you made... I am afraid.
On next day i found her - dyed
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Jens is EKTEMann, i made mistake yesterday... Today is today... very windy...brain even fly away...and i have only animal fear...
Today we decided-taki to send papers to Norvegian Embassy for visa. M-m-m-yes, it was very not clever, i feel it will proforma case about visa for me and at the end i will get NO... i am accustomed to get bad news... Jens will wait with me HERE for THIS next decision, but i am worried, because we not found here in apoteks - Marevan - medicine, wich he has only one free pill... and also insulin only one .... Embassy - Audun Rogne in Embassy- told that decision about visa will take 3 days... also i not bielive to it, but we will hope.... - i am not doctor yet - i cannot find for Jens other medicine...
Today here people startet to celebrate day of city, also it will tomorrow and after - what i seen? On the way to curier office i seen only crowd, crush, noice, drunks...
And Jens with me
I feel that i love hime more and more... and life without him looking like unpossible life...
And it is wish to say "thank you , Jens"
Sometimes ideal-man, sometimes no, but i cannot stay without him, and i am also ikke "prasent" - but it is something cacred between...
hello, Udi... hello, stortinge, hello, all people... i am dyed, seat in grave... It is one nice japan film "grave of glowworms".., wich is unpossible to see without tears .... i was staying in nail - has hall in foot... No problem ...i am sad, Jens is better than i, he is more happy... i am tyred... we cannot decide yet if we will go to Tyrkie - rent flat, or may be aplly for visa to Norway... but it is difficult to get correct answer from Embassy, that is why i think, it is unpossible for me to get visa to Norway.., eller i am afraid You, Norway... my places there was very beautifule...- park Green lights in the evening for example... Noone don't know this park, only i and Jens call it so... Jens is strong - whant as long as possible save his INSULIN, Jens is not "look" at his pain and walk with me to stadion every day - like my trainer... Hurra-Hurra-Hurra to Jens and football...
and i know UDI has sent to Jens many letters, that it is unpossible to chenge decision, even if it was not right... intonations is like this,... they want to say to Jens, that he is not so clever to understand rools about proforma marriage... ikke bra-ikke bra: Jens is little older than all oficerer - isee he is clever... i seat here, very depresed, Jens is sleeping, and i know, that it is slander to call us proforma... Please, Guro M Løvaas, you should say that it was mistake, because only You know, how it was terrible, when Jens Christian was in hospital, and i am 4000 km from him - here without information about if he is in life and what is with him... My husband was operated, was in hospital two times duaring year and i was asking Udi to wisit him (it was new year - and he was in hospital), they made decision about my feelings, that it is only wish to go to Norway... I have all letters, to Ida Børresen and to Guro M Løvaas, wich they understand -it seems- like proforma. This is was ghastly time. I am sorry i cannot forget it... it was so terryble time that i feel about Udi only fear... About proforma - it is wouded dignity of family, desecratio of my understanding of family, it is outrage upon my feelings to Jens, ..it is destruction of me, Jens is halping me to "be", Udi kill and kill
-....nei, it is so pain when i am seating
-...when i am staing it is a little better...
- uf, i am so tyred from it... So speak min Jens,.. today he has put his jaket on body so strange - upside-down... funnily... And it is seems sometimes everything goes topsy-turvy....when they sayd that we are proforma... and i was shure, that Jens is my love, my life... they sayd we have a fals marryage, and i try to understand what we are doing with Jens not so right, i don't know - befor i was not merry never-never, and noone not teach me how to be right wife, may be i do something not clever, but i learn and will learn more how it is to live with husband - i want do all wich should do wife.
I think about this case - how to show that decision was not correct, that this decisions kill us little by little...t is not pleasent to stay with this thoughts... i was and befor not so selfmotivated, but now decisions put me complite down- destroed ...
It is moments sometimes, when i am happy only because of moments - Jens with me, i made fotos, Jens walk with me to stadion and look how i try to play footbal - most when JensSolsike with me.... When he is with me i am more brave, i am happy, i am more beautifule, i want to show to him that i am clever... But-but-but, when we was walking to stadion he was tolking about pain, now befor he start to sleep it was pain.. most of time he is leying... i try to move him, i am afraid if he will lei only, he will dye slowly....
We cannot get permite to be a family in Norway, and today we made application for visa - visiting of my husband in Norway - it seems to me it will avshlag again - it is the brand of shaim on me
Today-fryday, Jens got yesterday letter from ambassy, that we can try to apply for visa, and can try to get yet NO... in the night i was crying, yesterday Jens was crying like a little boy. Yesterday was BANYA - we wash body there - Jens was afraid to go there, because it is hot there and heavy - i clean his body with wet towels for babyes... Soon he will go to Norway - his medicine come to finish... Noone don't want to understand what i should feel - all our family life is periods of nice few monthes together and then partings...he will start to smoke there again... please, with me he is not do it...
i try and try to send this story to people in twitter, please i am sorry everybody, but so often You speak about human rights, about help... we are only two - we are not store millioner, help to us is not so popular i think...but we should bielive - someone in planete will understand us may be...
God dag! God Dag! Det er meteorologisk institut.... Eh, people, sun is here... only all together You can HELP US. We need a little hjelp from powerfule voice of nations - Jens has flat in Larvik, but now he think about may be we should spend winter in Tyrkie - rent flat there (it will take a lot of money)... ai-ai-ai, we are ikke millionerer... And we are not young already and we want to have children... Can be it? can i know... can-can-can- we are family... i know... Jens, say it
rain-rain... rain-rain... is it really outumn coming??? Not
so much to do... it is sensation of marsh... fresh and dirty and new air possible to get from internet... Jens is sad - it seems... i am sad - i fell... We got new info - we will wait 7 month untill it will new "afshlag" for our family... Jens is very white - just got anastethy... Leing and tolking: "i hate Norway- i hate Norway..." but it is not true: from early morning he listen again radio norge - and look Eurosport bysikling and Buasom Hagen.. all the time read news "vg", "dagbladet".. it is only pain- only not good news from organizations, wich working with our case. And also his lag more and more blue and black - strange, we wai, when this blod will disappiar..
let us live... please
Friday night we was in traumatology - he was walk very bad and with pain - they recomended us to get some anaesthetic, but doctors was afraid to decide something, because they don't know norwegian medicine wich use Jens for heart and anti diabet... also afraid, because he has startbox... So Jens ask me to give him this anaestethy - ketorol and after only relax from pain and slep like dyed... but this gematoma started to take all thign..
People, dear people!
please, understand us - it was mistake... Jens has house and all things in Larvik - we have here in Chelyabinsk rights of birds - and nothing more - no chanse to get normal medicine hjelp.... And they don't know all medicine, which use Jens Christian frim Norway... He is really cannot move - diametr of his one thigh growing - that is why he cannot seat long and stay... he iis not crazy may because of radio noge... sometimes he sayd that he is hait Norway because of this case with me, but i can see he like Norway, miss, he is store patriot... and cannot be without radio Norge noone day. And You, Norway????
all day he is in bed faktiske - yes-yes... it is pitty to look at him.... callous persons-callous perrsons... because i can feel - ai-ai-ai... callous persons - callows perons who call us proforma... i am tired from life, Jens, you will reed it, i am tired from life - i cannot stay in life more, you have problems because of my stupid case... Sorry
Jeg elsker deg
last wich made me happy today is footal with Jens
stadion... we are together... but Jens fall... has pain in rumpa and in hand... but he is optimist... and made meny fotos nice...tomorrow exibition... Yes-yes, now it is really looking like a outumn want to come soon - cold cold especially if you eat ice-cream... at once your nose will blue... Stadion-stadion, my Jens Christian has very pain in rumpa...
Someone should know he start to save medicine and not use all every day - i don't know - may be it is ok.......................................................... i am afraid to think if it somthing will happen and i will not in power to give him first aid........................... it is not game - and we cannot restart here nothing...
Please, should be sense of justice
Advokat said to Jens that next decicion now will ready in Christmas - oi-oi-oi, again live apart
i am afraid
new story of day started from time when Jens was waik me up and told that
he is very cold, not good, feel something in heart - uf-uf... it was true something
- his head was wet and skin wet and also cold... Nu what i can give to him in this mment? yes, in moments like this i am afraid, that i will not help to him right... But i know that woman can be better then medicine sometimes (i am shure it is not about me), but i was leing and try to give to him my worm and my blanket.. he-he... usually i am much more cold then he and use his worm... sorry...
one thing i hope - today we will sleep good. Da?
i ask him now - he is happy but tired.
i gave to him new insulator from refrigeraitor ... and it is tre yet for future - it mean twoo weks....? Jens, two weeks?
i found few pear on tree - Jens told it teist like it was on tree of his grandmother... i try to imagine GRANDMOTHER... i will dream...
urra! urra! urra! first time in life i was in fotbal stadion - ugly-ugly - but STADION...
Jens has realised many penalties to my goal... but now he want to occupaid internet... good night!
today - market, where it is possible to find shipest cheese, butter, meat... reality-gray-reality...
Also Jens has got a task to open nutts from abrikoser - it was for marmelad... And also i think that one film "Den Brysomme Mannen" - is a film what i was felt when i was deportert from Norway... And something there is like about this deportation... i like this film very much.. may be because i not understand it complite... but this people- forse - was looking complite like a police in trandum - very strong, but carefully... And it is all the time i feel some invisible pover wich is move this "little" (i am sorry) people... it is strange and i am afraid sometimes
Good evening fra Chelyabinsk... he, we was today in center - i want to say that i need to learn Norvegian language (dream-dream-dream), because i need to feel Jens more... and show what i have in soul...
it was "ZAGS" today - place when we start to be like a one family one year ago...
gaudeamus igitur!!!!
we was walking to the river today - bring a little sand to chikens... It is not hot today - i hope will rain and will bring enought water to our earth... Jens working and working and try to say that Udi was not right to call us PROFORMA... i think this WORD is very strange - i was thinking-thinking: i can call many thing wich happened in society like a PROFORMA..., i was thinking-thinking: for what they try to understand love like a minimum difference betwine language and age? may be i know about life not so much.... yet... Jens, jeg elsker deg
people seat there in offices and decide our destiny - clean and wite everiting looking....
God!!!!! save uss together!!!!
Good morning... we was not sleep tonight... Jens was not sleep - and i was listen how he is moving ant cnnot find place for him - may be he was sick, may be it was too hot, ay be it was moskiter, and also it is because of this case which they has sent to Une... But now good morning, we are in new day and should spend it worthy... Now Jens is sleeping silently. But we made allready many things in garden - Hurra... today is 12
My dear people... dear different people, wich is live in planet and have not interes about my life... i want to say to nowhere - to eternity, that i am here, my husband is with me, i am happy, it is very hot, i am in shok, because it is was refuse for my case again yestarday... I am afrai of moment when medicina of my husband will finished and he will need to go to Norway to get new porcium... i painted table - old, cleaned our toilet in street - if it is possible to clean it...
i want to go to kirke - it is true, to Høvik kirke - i have one of the brights memories about this kirke... i cannot stay without Jens - it will fear again without him - he is my - i feel it...
Dear people, i will never wish to noone from YOU to get the same troubles and nerves wich we have together with Jens... I can say true: i can be angree, but i learned allready: i should try to save Jens from negative - i am ok - visually ok
11 of august
Today is again monday - i am like a tiran - because i not give to Jens permite to seat so long time and internet - because of his eyes, sirtainly... But for him it is very heavy - i think - because it is not so much to do here - we seat all the time in house untill my parents com... sometimes we do something in garden, Jens acomulaite water to all reservuarers in garden in the mornins and at the evening i give it to plants - this we do every day
Also we try and try to repear eye of Jens Christian - it is possible to take away blod from it - i bielive... Every time when i put drop to his eye - he sayd: pain-pain and hug me and kiss... Jens Christin - like little boy... and also not listen me and look at internet... it is because he want to know about destiny of my case about family reunification - but in any case people has not so much reaction on his qwestions - it seems to me everybody want to be only polite... ikke bra... may be this case only about me, but he is also feel.
Now we don't know future...
I am sorry - things wich i wrout came from my head - i can be and not right
nothing..., i not think that somehing in my life can be interestin for other peoplle... So everithing is again proforma...
. Jens, be happy...
Jens, i am sorry
Jens shell boil tong of bull
Jens just finished his porrige - and now he has strange sound in own stomack..
We made manikure and primitive pedikure yesterday...
And also football ball - ha-ha - i am sooo happy somertimes...
Jens i have to say sorry for yesterday olso... it was not bra and for me but and for YOU olso
Jens, today, in 21 of july, made sukker analize - and it is 9,7... not bra,yes?
ai-ai-ai
my knight, you need a rest
But he is man wich is forgot to put insuline - he seating in facebook all time and that is why...
i like this foto and this mordo... yesterday we was in Chiken-kino lake - litt salt.. Jens Christian was stronger then i and more optimist duaring day... bravo-ho-ho
statistik shows that today it goes sekond year of our life - i don't know - family (chto li) life... Just only it was not chanse to be togetheer long time, but it was not that i was wish - yes, together much mor better, yes...
today.. and yesterday - potato plantation - we cannot even move more
Jens leying here - pink and beautifule, like a butterfly - he thinking, i know he is clever...
in any case i will dye
only Jens say to me "BRAVO" when i made something clever... i try to be the same like he, here in russia people not so much kind with each other - Jens - is unikum for me sometimes... and complite child
And Jens Christian today sick... I have not knowlege: what medicine i can give to him...
And insuline he has only for 5 week ahead- it mean he will go to Norway soon... He all time depend from apotek in Norway and hospitals... but it is no problem, i wait and he can come back... but it is SO MUCH MONEY AND NERVES... ETERNITY!
He used paracet for killing this fiver... and now sliping... we can only bielive 
Jens Christian, i am sorry.... Jens Christian, don't be sick, Jens Christian, let us play footbal... Jens Christian, jeg elsker DEG...
And may be You only got allergy at me, min EKTEMANN???
New monday... Hello, Jens!
Tomorrow new something other.. Hurra, Jens!
i should do-do-do...-to show that i am ikke parazit... i am also for something in this planet... Yesterday was Argazi leik... about it laiter
May be better to call it CROAKing, but not twitter... yes??? it is looking more like ...kvak-kva-kvak... about me also - something birning-birning inside and than i have not power to not say my angree KVA-KVA... i am sorry, Planeta, i am sorry, People...for my mistakes
A little from me about Argazy... it is only place where we can save our bodyes from hot-hot weather - yes, i am aproksmently like a begemot... i like and understand water more and more...
Jens... it is store optimist - because of this optimizm he is stronger then all troubles...
Jeg elsker deg
i am sorry for troubles.., min ektemann :)... it is because i am yet not so clever like a you...
....this is limit, Jens, in time when you eat dinner there, i cannot put fotos here more... i used 100 percent... my report is finished may be...
Please-please-please, kind People, there,who decided our life, who call it like proforma, please, be human, i Know that i am right now and Jens is right and and LOVE is right...
Allergy... he got here something like a allergi... it is certanly unpossible to find out here what happened with Jens... It is all the time goes and goes water from his nose and terrible caffing also - befor it was normal to listen it, but now i am affraid - what it is???... It is can be funny for someone to read it - SNØRR-SNØRR, but it is not so pleasent for Jens to stay with it... i sayd to him that may be better to go to Norway for him and visit doctor, but Jens Christian like a Super Hero - sayd: "he will dye here, but with me..." it is big pleasure for me to listen it, but Jens Christian, i am afraid... And also this Tramadol finished and insulator only for four weeks ahead... yes, he told: he will dye here
..case was in one of hot days of August
Today Jens Christian cannot write nothing more, he was waik up in the morning with the blod in his yeys - Norway soon will kill him... Thank you for hjelp and not hjelp... we are in life 
6 august
